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Help me forget - Phan

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Dan’s POV

‘Help me forget’ I sobbed down the phone, Peej’s soothing voice trying to calm me down. However, no amount of cooing or telling me everything would be alright was going to make me feel better. James, my boyfriend... well, now EX-boyfriend had just broken up with me. We had been dating for over a year and he broke up with me over text. The worst, most childish way to do it. He mustn’t have had an ounce of self respect. I keep telling myself this, yet here I am, curled up on my bed, crying my eyes out over someone who didn’t deserve my tears. 

‘Peej, please. Please help me forget about him. He broke my heart.’ I sniffed. 

‘It’ll be okay, Dan. I’ll get some friends together, we’ll have a good night out, I promise. I’ll pick you up around 8ish, okay?’ he reassured me. I hope he’s right. I hate being sad. 

‘M’kay. Thank you, I’ll see you later.’ I said gratefully. Peej always knows how to cheer me up, he is my best friend after all.

Phil’s POV

Help me forget I texted Chris. My life is so boring right now. I yawned, stretched and rolled out of bed. Straight into the shower, out, breakfast, dressed. Same routine, every morning, every day, week by week. I was getting sick of doing the same old thing. I had nothing to motivate me to do anything. I just lounged around all day. That’s why I wanted Chris to take me out tonight, he always thinks of fun things to do. My phone buzzed, I click the little green button 

‘Hey Chris!’ I beamed. 

‘Hey, so, guess what?’ he said excitedly. 

‘What is it now?’ I sighed, thinking it would be something irrelevant to me. 

‘We’re going clubbing tonight! It’s going to be awesome!’ He squealed. I was actually excited about this. 

I’d been clubbing a couple of times before, but never with Chris. I knew he would make the experience so much more enjoyable than the other times. I smiled. 

‘That sounds cool. Pick me up at 8?’ I replied. He agreed and I hung up. I suppose I have some... well a lot of time to kill before I meet Chris.

Dan’s POV

We arrived outside the club, Peej, Teoh, Tom and I. 

‘Better start queuing then, I guess.’ I said, worried that we would spend all night outside instead of where we were meant to be. 

‘Don’t worry guys, I got this.’ Teoh winked. He walked up to the bouncer and they greeted one another like old friends. Teoh gestured for the rest of us to join him inside. 

‘Have a good night, fellahs.’ The bouncer grinned, letting us into the club. It was crazy inside, the music was so loud. There were half naked girls everywhere, classy. I wasn’t checking out the girls though, I was eyeing up suitable guys to help me get over James. 

Tom found us a free booth and Teoh went to get drinks. He said he knew the barman and could get us some free stuff. Teoh knows just about everyone around here.

Peej turned to me and said ‘So, seen anyone you like the look of?’ I shrugged. 

‘Not really, no-one’s caught my eye yet.’ I said. 

As soon as I uttered these words my eyes landed on someone so perfect I could not comprehend that they were right in front of me. His glossy black hair sweeping across his pale face. His eyes... well, you could go swimming in those eyes. Everything about him screamed perfection. I had to talk to him. I had to get to know him. I had to have him. 

‘Peej, I'm going to dance. I’ll be back later’ I said, not taking my eyes off this beautiful boy. He appeared to be dancing with someone else, another guy. He was the same height, if a little taller with short brown hair. I could introduce him to Peej... he deserves someone nice. I danced my way over to him, before I ended up standing directly behind him. 

‘Hey’ I whispered in his ear.

Phil’s POV

I had been dancing with Chris for about an hour now, I love dancing. I am able to take my mind off everything and just focus on myself for a while. The music pounding through my head. I was already under the influence of alcohol. 

Okay... maybe I’d had a little too much to drink but hey, I was having fun, sue me. I was just getting into the song when I felt someone’s warm breath tickle the back of my neck. 

‘Hey.’ Someone whispered, huskily. I turned around to see the most gorgeous boy I had ever seen. His golden skin, his chocolaty brown hair, his deep brown eyes. 

‘Well, hey there. Care to dance?’ I said flirtily. 

His eyes lit up ‘Sure’ he smiled, showing off his pearly white teeth. Oh my god, he looks stunning when he smiles. I took his hands and placed them on my hips and started swaying in time with the music. A blush crept on to his face making him look even more adorable. I ran my hands down his chest to his stomach. 

Ohmygodhehasabsohmygodhehasabs. 

So, not only is he absolutely gorgeous, but he’s fit, too. It’s the whole package. He. Is. Amazing. 

‘So,’ I had to shout to make myself heard over the music ‘What are you doing here? Gorgeous guy, shouldn’t you be dancing with your girlfriend?’ I winked. 

‘Haha, girlfriend?’ he seemed shocked. I took a gulp of my drink Chris had brought me. ‘I’m gay!’ he exclaimed. 

It took me all I had not to spit my drink out everywhere. Instead I swallowed hard and looked examined his face. Was he really? I’ve had guys play me before, setting me up then revealing they’re not actually gay and being disgusted when I make a move on them. God damn. 

‘I came out tonight with a bunch of friends. My ex dumped me, so I’ve come here to help forget.’ He said, truthfully. I felt anger surge up inside me. Who could be stupid enough to let this amazing guy go? Well, if he’s lost him, surely I can have him? 

‘Well, I’m bi but...’ I trailed a finger down his chest, making him shiver ‘I think I’m starting to sway more towards guys. I’m Phil, by the way, Phil Lester.’ He smiled back at me 

‘Dan Howell.’ We danced for ages; I got completely lost in his gorgeous eyes. 

‘Hey, I need to get back to my friends. Want to come and get some drinks with us?’ He asked, his voice startling me. I glanced over at Chris, who was dancing with a very attractive guy, brown hair, little bit taller than Chris. 

‘Oh hey, it’s Peej!’ Dan smiled. That must be the one that took him out tonight. He sure as hell seemed to be enjoying himself; Chris’ hands were all over his body. Well, I suppose he’s always been pretty forward about who he likes. When I first met him he tried to hit on me but I told him things would never work out. He was pretty annoyed, but now we’re best friends, so it all turned out for the better. ‘Hah, he’s dancing with Chris. Let’s go break them up before they get down and dirty on the dance floor.’ I giggled. I took his hand and dragged him over to Chris and his friend. 

‘HEY!’ Chris yelled in my ears. Wow, he’s had way too much to drink... ‘THIS IS PEEJ. WE’VE BEEN DANCING.’ He slurred. 

‘I can see that,’ I laughed ‘Come on, let’s go sit down. You need to sober up.’ I said, grabbing his hand as well as Dan’s. 

‘I’ll be back in a sec, I need to talk to Peej.’ He let go of my hand and I turned back to Chris. 

‘Soooo, who’s the fitty?’ he swayed on his feet. 

‘That’s Dan. He’s gorgeous isn’t he?’ I sighed watching him as we took Peej by the arm to the bathrooms. 

‘Yeah. I want another drink.’ Chris frowned looking at the empty shot glass in his hand. 

‘No. No more drinks for you. Besides, who’s the one you were dancing with?!’ I waggled my eyebrows at him suggestively. 

‘That’s Peej. He’s so funny’ Chris burst out laughing. A look of confusion crossed my face before I realised he must have thought of something Peej had said. He’s so drunk. 

‘Okay. I’m going to the bathroom, go see Alex and Charlie, they’re in one of the booths at the side. Don’t let them give you any more drinks. If they do there will be hell to pay.’ I warned him before patting him on his head and sending him on his way. I was surprised Charlie actually agreed to come, he never goes to places like this. Probably because Alex has come, he's been in love with him for ages. I watch him till I see Charlie stand up to help him sit down without toppling over. He gives me a knowing look and I nod. Right, now to find Dan.

Dan’s POV

I grab Peej’s arm and lead him to the bathroom. I swing the door open and check under all the stall doors. No-one’s in here. I turn around to face Peej. 

‘I think... I think I love him.’ I say after a long pause. 

‘What? How can you love him?! James just broke up with you!’ Peej’s starts pacing around me. 

‘Well, I knew it wasn’t right with James. The spark left our relationship ages ago; I just think we were too scared to break it off... too scared to be alone. But I saw Phil and I knew. I’ve never felt like this about anyone before.’ I gush, my mind racing, thinking about how amazing he is. Peej just looked at me like I was completely mental. He shook his head and went over to the sinks where he splashed his face with cold water. 

‘What’s up?’ I say, worriedly. 

‘You know that guy I was dancing with?’ I could see him looking at me out of the corner of his eye. I nodded slowly. 

‘I’m not gay!’ he slammed his fist down on the marble sink. I jumped away from him. Peej never raises his voice above normal, yet here he is, shouting over some guy in a club. 

‘Peej, you’ve never had any experience with guys before. You never know...’ I suggested. 

‘No, Dan. You don’t understand. I can’t be gay. My parents would literally kill me if they ever found out.’ He ran his hands through his hair and gritted his teeth. 

Oh yeah, forgot about Peej’s horrendously homophobic parents. I had been friends with Peej for years and his parents used to like me, however when I told them I was gay... well... they never talked to me again and Peej was grounded for having a gay friend and was told to lose all contact with me he had. This didn’t stop our friendship, we met secretly and as soon as Peej’s parents found out they kicked him out. I offered him a place to stay and our relationship has grown from there. He’s the best friend I always wanted. 

I was shunned at school for being openly gay. I was bullied, verbally and physically. My parents found my wounds and I’d told them I’d fallen over, but as they got more severe it was increasingly difficult to hide them under lies. Eventually, I told them. I got removed from that school and was moved to an all boy school. Here, I could never tell anyone I was gay. They were even bigger homophobes than Peej’s parents. The way they talked about gay people as if they were a different species made me want to throw up. No-one should be discriminated against for something they can’t choose. As soon as I left that school I vowed I would be open about who I am and if people don’t like that they can suck it. I have no time for those kinds of people. 

‘Peej. It’s okay to be gay,’ I soothed, pulling him into a hug. 

‘Give Chris a chance, he seems so lovely, and you two looked pretty cosy when I saw you.’ He chuckled. 

‘Thanks Dan, I’m going to go see Teoh, I need a drink.’ And with that he left me in the bathroom. No sooner had he left but Phil burst through the door. His eyes darted around the room before finally settling on me. He looked me up and down, as if he was judging me, seeing if he had made a mistake. 

When he seemed decidedly happy he rushed over to me, grabbing me by the collar and kissing my roughly on the lips. I didn’t have any objection to this but he’s taken me by surprise so I didn’t have a chance to kiss back before he pulled away. 

‘Uhh... sorry about that, I umm... It’s just... I uhh...’ he stammered, a pink tinge appearing on his pale cheeks. 

‘Phil, its fine. I was doing everything I could to stop myself from doing that earlier.’ He looked into my eyes. His eyes are literally the most beautiful things I have ever seen. 

‘Want to me to help you forget James?’ he said cheekily, sticking his tongue out the side of his mouth. I didn’t reply, well in a way I did by bringing his mouth back to mine. I forcefully shoved him against one of the walls making him wince and me instantly regret my actions. He reassured me by gripping his hands in my hair. I nibbled his bottom lip, requesting to deepen the kiss, which he gladly allowed. I lifted him off his feet urging him to wrap his legs around my waist which he obeyed. I explored his mouth for what seemed like hours, enjoying the gentle tugging on my hair and the sweet taste of him. Finally, I drew back, panting. I put my forehead on his and smile. He pecked my lips. 

‘So, let’s go find our friends. Who are you with tonight?’ I asked him. 

‘Um, Chris, who you already know about and Alex and Charlie. You?’ My brain was completely scrambled from that mind-blowing kiss. Pull yourself together, Dan I mentally scolded myself. 

‘Uhh, Peej, um... Teoh and Tom.’ I stammered. Way to keep your cool there.

'Cool. I don't want to be here any more, I have more interesting things I can think of that we can do.' He winked flirtily, making my insides squirm. 

'W-we can go to m-mine?' Good god, I need to sort myself out.

'Sounds good. Let me down and we can go?' He cocked his head to the side, I didn't realize he still had his legs around my waist. 

'S-sorry.' I stepped back and Phil placed his feet back on solid ground. We walked back through, my hands on Phil's hips, towards our friends. A smirk appeared on my face as I saw Chris and Peej having an intense make-out session. Seems like he's made his mind up. There were 2 of Phil's friends who were laughing and talking. The red haired one was blushing and twirling his hair, giggling like a maniac, he obviously fancies the other guy.

'Hey, who are those 2?' I pointed, shouting in Phil's ear. He turned his head slightly so I could hear him better.

'Alex is the one with the fluffy brown hair and an... interesting choice of clothes. The other one, who is attempting to flirt, is Charlie. He loves Alex, but Alex can't see it. It's ridiculous.' He sighed, obviously fed up with the fact that they weren't together. I was, too, and I'd just seen them! They look so cute together. When we reached them, I had my arms fully round Phil's waist, head resting on his shoulder.

'Hey guys. We're gunna head off now. I'll see you tomorrow... maybe.' Phil giggled. 

'M'kay, see you later.' Charlie said, not taking his eyes off Alex. I rolled my eyes and tapped Alex on the shoulder.

'Hmm?' He turned to look at me. 

'Mate, I know we don't have any idea who the other is, but FUCKING KISS HIM. OR I WILL.' I shouted, pointing at Charlie who's face turned bright red, hiding his head in his hands. Alex's eyes widened.

'What?' He asked, surprised.

'Kiss the boy! He's in love with you, doesn't take a fool to work that much out.' I slapped him round the back of the head, making Phil laugh. Alex rubbed his head annoyedly, but looked at me gratefully, almost as if he was thanking me for giving him a reason to kiss Charlie. I'll get the updates from Phil on that relationship. 

'Let's go now.' Phil whispered, his lips brushing my ear slightly, making me shiver. 

I have never wanted to hear that sentence more in my life.
bad fics FTW, i wrote this AAAGES ago, when I first started writing and completely forgot about it :') sorry for the horrendousness and for the thousands of spelling mistakes I probably made. oops.
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Gah! It's so god. You are amazing. I love you. Gah!!!! WHYAREYOUSOTALENTED!? <---wish I could use an interrobang!
*deep breath*
Thank you for sharing your talent with us. It makes me all happy and fuzzy and warm inside. <3